My Mind

yeah, thought of more shit i really want to get off my chest and out of my mind.

i want stability, i want forever, i want something solid. yet im terrified for any real comittment. andrew says he loves me, and he says forever, which should be enough......but still i fear. fear being alone, of him leaving me. i dont want to be hurt again. i guess i just dont know what i want anymore.

i want happiness yet it seems like i can look through the clouds to find the sunshine. and i crazy......i mean completely out of my head? why do i even still look at daniel's blogs? why do i care? i dont know......why doees part of me still wished he longed for me? to know he is haert broken. am i a cruel bitch?

i just want to be over and past it. i sometimes feel like i need to get away. away from campus, ky and ohio.  i just want a new start. but i love my friends, and family. but sometimes i feel stuck. like theres no way for me to get over anything while here. to many memories and feelings are attached to these places. like the air is filled with words that will never be said, memories that will never be made, and the stuffiness of the emptiness that will never be filled. the emptiness sometimes is enough to suffocate me. am i crazy? have i finally gone off the deep end? is this my mind telling me this is the beginning of a nervous breakdown? too many questions and too many answers i dont want to hear........

Woo hoo, the steelers are going to the super bowl! i told everyone they would kick the bronco's ass.  man my sinuses are fucking hurting, and itching like hell. there will be no way in hell they are going to let me in clinicals this sick. me and andrew are doing well. im getting better at confronting him about things im not happy with. which doesnt sound hard, being the type of realtionship where in, but damn that daniel making me afraid. i hate what that break up did to me. it made me doubt myself so much. god, i feel like shit!

thats it for now

tata 

One day my housework-challenged husband decided to wash his Sweatshirt. Seconds after he stepped into the laundry room, he shouted to me, "What setting do I use on the washing machine?"
"It depends," I replied. "What does it say on your shirt?"

He yelled back, "University of Oklahoma."


And they say blondes are dumb...

A couple is lying in bed. The man says, "I am going to make you the happiest woman in the world." The woman replies, "I'll miss you..."

"It's just too hot to wear clothes today," Jack says as he stepped out of the shower, "honey, what do you think the neighbors would think if I mowed the lawn like this?"

"Probably that I married you for your money," she replied.

He said - Shall we try swapping positions tonight? She said - That's a good idea... you stand by the ironing board while I sit on the sofa and pass gas!
Q: What do you call an intelligent, good looking, sensitive man?
A: A rumor

A man and his wife, now in their 60's, were celebrating their 40th wedding anniversary. On their special day a good fairy came to them and said that because they had been so good that each one of them could have one wish. The wife wished for a trip around the world with her husband.
Whoosh! Immediately she had airline/cruise tickets in her hands.

The man wished for a female companion 30 years younger... Whoosh...immediately he turned ninety!!! Gotta love that fairy!

A PRAYER....


Dear Lord,

I pray for Wisdom to understand my man;

Love to forgive him;

And Patience for his moods.

Because, Lord, if I pray for Strength,

I'll beat him to death.

AMEN


Q: Why do little boys whine?

A: They are practicing to be men.

Q: What do you call a handcuffed man?

A: Trustworthy.

Q: What does it mean when a man is in your bed gasping for breath and calling your name?

A: You did not hold the pillow down long enough.

Q: Why do female black widow spiders kill their males after mating?
A: To stop the snoring before it starts.

Q: Why do men whistle when they are sitting on the toilet?

A: It helps them remember which end they need to wipe.

Q: What is the difference between men and women?

A: A woman wants one man to satisfy her every need. A man wants every woman to satisfy his one need.

Q: How do you keep your husband from reading your e-mail?

A: Rename the mail folder "Instruction Manuals"