My Mind

To my drew-

i writ ethis knowing that you will never see it, which is sad, but what is to be done shall be. i read my tarot today, and it was really interesting.  my sigfinicator was the lovers, which meant in our new realtionship it was real and serious, and will be a deeper realtionship than ive ever expreinced. and i think that is great , and i want that with you. my past was bitter, spiteful and resentful or the high priestess in reverse. that stung a bit, but its true. my present was the empress, which is matratical charater that shows content love creativity and completness, which made me really happy.  but for somereason the futrure alwasys lurks ahead to try to hurt me. it was the queen of coins.....in reverse. so the brown eyes and brown hair bueaty which usually means riches with humilty, now menas greediness, and the bad side of obsession with money. she is pretty much a hard nosed greedy bitch. which isnt good, and im still confused with how that applys to me. unless it reflects my working and  trying to hard to have enough that i end up being greedy and stingy.

anyways, andrew i love you, and at times you make me so angry, and its like we do it to each other. mabey im being babish, which is possible, but i just dont know what to do, i love you but you infurate me so much sometimes. i just dont know what to do with you. grrrrr.

but all in all i love you.

your orange

tata