My Mind

guys are so shitty. daniel has a new chick. i mean, come the fuck on, it hasnt even been a month. but hes taken her home to see the rents. what the fuck ever.  who knows mabey its his soul mate, or just a fling. after last weekend i cannot judge, and boy my roommates wont let me forget it. one crazy night of sex with a guy named gavin, and ya never live it down. but i feel i must add that its not what i expected. he seemed really into me. on the way to his house he was so sweet! he held my hand, kissed me excessively on my cheek and forehead. it was so sweet! but after sex that was it, no cuddling, no holding, nothing, just sex. and it made me miss daniel so bad. the way he would hold me, how we would cuddle and snuggle, and the pet talk.  i left gavin's house feeling sad and empty  and longing for daniels kind touch. the next day i went to his room and cried. i couldnt tell him why, i just made damn sure that he knew it was b/c of him. things looked better, we talked more, and we felt comfortable with each other again. i thought things were getting better, thats when he dropped the hollie bomb. that they were going to his house this saturday and having dinner with his parents. i hope she has better luck than i did. i just hope the guy im ment to be with forever, that his parents will love me the way my parents loved daniel. i know that thats not too much to ask  for . i deserve someone great.

anyway, so since the night the H bomb got dropped i haven't talked to him since. three days and counting. i dont know how i would have doen it with out jessie and dani, 2 of my roommates. jess has been in this place before and is great for giving advice and knowing just when to listen. i couldn't have done this with out her. and  dani she helps me by helping me keep busy, i can always depend on her to help me laugh and have fun.  jess is also a comic relief. she has been the for me when ever i need her. those two girls are my best friends, with out them theres no way i could be getting through this break up.

On the up side of today i bought be first pair of real heels, they are BCBGIirls, and i got them for only $43, i love them. it would be even better if i didnt have a pinkie toe, but thats another story

tata for now