My Mind

have you held everything in for so long, that it seemed like youwould explode. it seemed like you had lots of ears willing to listen, but you never know who you can trust.  this summer has been crazy, at the beginning it seemed like it would be the best thing in the world. i had my closest friends by my side, i had the man of my dreams , and all was good in my world. but just a few weeks ago it changed, and the "friends" that i hadn't talked to all summer were there for me. he simply said he had made his decision, he didn't love me any more. i am so mad at him. why is it that it takes 2 people to start a relationship, yet only one to end it. i dont think thats fair, i think that both the people should be able to decied to end a relationship.  well lying sack of shit, aka the ex, seemed to enjoy th break up, which left me mortified, and move straight to katie, evil girl from walters, when that didnt pan out his sights are now set to the girl above him, hollie. what is so great about them, or better yet  whats so shitty about me.  crazy shit. my life is nothing but drama drama drama.  so now im alone, but i have my friends . atleast most of the time. last year i spent all my time with daniel, and i was cool with that. he was my world, my soul mate, my best friend.  so our bonds weren't that great, now that hes gone. they're all i got. which trust me im grateful for. but there is this distance, they are best friends we're friends. which sorta makes me feel left out. in a dorm full of hundredsz of girls, i feel so alone. like i have no one to turn too. i mean i have friends in class, in dorms, and my crew. but i still feel so alone here sometimes. my heart hurts. i swear its broken sometimes. its utterly depressing. for anyone who has read this and now wants to kill themself, im sorry. it wasnt intended, but now i feel much better , like a pain has been lifted from my soul.  thanks, till next  time.